NOTE: I just realized that it has been nearly a year since I’ve blogged. A lot has happened in that time which I’ll share as parts of forthcoming blogs, but just know this – I’m HAPPY!!! I still have things I struggle with (we all do) but I’m learning, more and more, to give myself the grace that I extend to others. As I re-read my last blog post, it reminded me, once again, of who I am which makes today’s post even better. Remember who you are and who God made you to be. Never forget that! Happy reading and happy thriving!!!
As I sat down today for my morning prayer/devotion/meditation, I sat with a bit of an emptiness and feeling of lack. Often, when I think of myself as it pertains to male/female relationships and even new friendships, I tend to focus on flaws that I perceive within myself and not on my strengths. Here’s a short list:
- I talk too much
- I interrupt people because I get so excited
- sometimes too excited/hyper
- not “polished” or “cultured” enough to belong in this circle/with this person
- yadda, yadda, yadda
The list LITERALLY could go on and on in my head. I think back on past conversations and interactions and analyze every word that I said, wondering if I said the wrong thing, or came across as boorish or some other negative adjective.
I am learning to stop the negative self-talk, because what we think, we become. It is a daily practice, sometimes a moment by moment practice, and it does take practice…verb form…practice! In just the first moments of my meditation this morning, as I tried my best to practice talking back to that negative self-talk and affirming myself, I almost immediately had the word “confidence” come to mind.
My meditations are often more like prayers, but it seems my spirit and sub-conscience mind are listening. Here is what I prayed and heard:
God and my angels are conspiring to bring me joy and success today. They are helping to strengthen me and raise my vibration/attitude/belief system/energy, to attract that which I desire. They are helping me to draw love and success to me right now! It’s already here. I just need to have confidence and draw it forth.
As I was writing those words in my journal, preparing for this blog entry, a vision of a soaked washcloth came to my mind. It was full of life-giving water. All I need to do is wring it out, squeeze it to get every drop of water, to bring the water forth. I think this is an analogy for my life. Everything I need is already here, waiting for me to believe it enough to live in such a way that I squeeze it out of the atmosphere and bring it into my life. Everything I need and desire is here, overflowing, in abundance. Like the washcloth, I need to wring it out by, first, believing that it is there and that everything I need and want is waiting for me to receive it, by faith, by trusting God and my angels to guide me to it and it to me, by taking action, when necessary, living life to the full, not cowering, not playing small, taking positive actions in every area of my life so that the positivity in one area overflows to the next and then the next!
I heard, this morning, that I am not lacking. I am not sub-par. I am not too much. I am just enough for those who are supposed to take this journey with me. I can rest and be confident in that.
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful. I know that full well.” – Psalm 139:14
“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.” – Philippians 4:8
“The mind is everything. What you think you become.” – Buddha